Tears in the Rainfall…

Imagine darkness… nothing but a void space of unimaginable size, big or small, not a ray in sight, nothing but feeling of looking out into a finite space but not in form.. This darkness is life itself..  a vast unpredictable but felt to be finite span of a journey where anything is possible.. You might imagine anything in this void darkness, same as you can be or do anything in your life. Just like life itself cannot be defined by any equation or formula, similar is the case for defining darkness. Both misunderstood, Both calm and patient, Both rely on us to mould by imagination/effort into anything possible form.

Now imagine rainfall in this darkness.. A sound of thunder, a flash of light, a dull flash of light.. Drops of water different size, falling down, some soft and assuring while others harsh and strong..  The lightning in this storm doesn’t show you what lies in the darkness, but shines for a moment brief enough for you to grasp confidence about the surrounding emptiness. This storm is Guidance that one might receive in life, the advice of well being , some soft and loving while others harsh and strong, but they all mean the same thing, your well being.

Now imagine a face, up close, face tilted upwards to face the storm, eyes shut, lips together, the expression of calmness and serenity, the face only slightly lit up in shades of platinum, light focussed in the center fading away as it reaches the edge, The eyes lined with a thick border of dark eyelashes, darkened even more by soot. Raindrops falling on this dimly lit face up close to you, all you can do is to see and wonder, this face looking up in this vast expanse of darkness, this frail luminescence onto it, and drops of face hitting this face, and trickling down from all sides. This face, is an experience in life, any experience you can think of, an experience surrounded by thoughts and advice, an experience surrounded by all the choices you have made, as a result of direct or indirect guidance that you might have received. This face in this storm , up close in this darkness.

A question that i will put forward now to all out there, in this “LIFE” that i showed you above, do you see tears of this face? A drop of tear, trickling down the face in the midst of all the rain falling on the face itself ?

Well, the obvious answer will be, “How could I”, how can one find a tear in the midst of this apparition of a void darkness , a dim lit face with eyes shut looking up to a storm that sends down thunder lightning and horrendous rain.  How would we know which is water and which is tear. The answer is to understand what this tear is.

This tear is an emotion, an emotion that we have in life, that we harbour in life, we might think we know the tear by looking at this face of experience, but it might just be a drop of water, or an emotion that we think is there, a judgement error involving a misplaced sense of a particular emotion. But on occasions, one might rightly identity the tear amongst water, blessed is the person who does so, as knowing the emotion at the time of the experience is a gift not many receive. On occasions some might even believe that they have the right one, even if deep down inside, they know it might not be.. For such occasions, we have mistaken a part of life, and it will reflect back in a way where we will be clueless as to what happened.. To avoid such an experience or to revert such a belief, one needs to touch the core of one’s own belief, which lies deep within, and it is from within  can we rectify the act. This will not bring back the moment lost, but will set up the moments to come to be beautiful.

In this large void of life, using the soft/hard guidance of many, and at the time of looking onto the face of experience , try… just try to identify the right emotion we bear , good comes from it if you can, otherwise what else is there in this void to see, and thus do we figure out our lives, the emotions and experiences, but if we can’t, then life is just a sight of something you like, something you live, but something that you never figured through.

Know these Tears in the Rainfall…

– Dilnawaz