The Face within…

” For neither man nor angel can discern Hypocrisy, the only evil that walks Invisible, except to God alone.”

JOHN MILTON, Paradise Lost

The only things that crossed my mind when i read John’s quote were : My sketch, which i made at an age i did not completely understand, and my life on a daily basis, which compels me to put on a mask everyday i go out.

The Face Within...

Alternative Presentation is as much a part of our lives as breathing…

This sketch was nothing more than a re-created gaming poster which i drew because i was impressed with the concept of deceit and hypocrisy depicted in the original poster, being an sketch enthusiast , i put in a lot of effort to get it to perfection without truly understanding the complete meaning of my own work. Years have passed since then, and when i look down on it now, i realize that i am yet to understand its complete meaning.

When i drew it,  hypocrisy was just a concept i wanted to depict, but now i understand that this sketch also had an extra member to the intended audience, a member i did not, at that time, even remotely considered, Myself. As i mentioned earlier, When i read Milton’s quote, the first thing that came to my mind was the sketch, my first understanding of the act, the second was my life, and the lives of all the others in my life.

Hypocrisy is not a negativity, although generally not accepted as a good act, but Hypocrisy is a learning, a learning that life throws at us to better understand ourselves and others around us. It is a choice of presentation not a sin, but pretty much similar to a twin-headed  blade, used in a good conscience , it can help uncover one’s own limitations to one’s own self-acceptance, used otherwise, can be a dark weapon of deception and deceit. We can truly understand our limitations of good and righteousness when we fall into this act, the learning here is to try and expand our boundaries of good rather than crossing over to the dark. Also, to remember that this cannot be done without self-acceptance and an urge to become a better person. for me, my acceptance comes when i look at this sketch, look around, you might find an object of realization for yourself.

Now, i am not a negative man, neither do i try to be, but all this use of the word Hypocrisy might pollute our topic of discussion here, remember our scope is far more larger than limited meaning of Hypocrisy. Since the word Hypocrisy is well defined in the English language as a negative term, let us explore our idea here with euphemism , Alternative presentation. Please do remember that our euphemism has a larger scope than Hypocrisy as it  is not only a term for deceit but also through matters of harmless nature like acting pleasant in front of a loved one when we are angry.

Daily life puts us in a situation where an alternative form of expression becomes mandatory, although some might argue that this is might not be necessary, we are not talking about lies, nor deceit, but a simple fact of presenting ourselves and our ideas in an alternative form for it to cross the barriers we face, which in many cases are arrogance in the minds of the ones controlling the flow. Confused..??  Have you ever tried to get through an idea which beats your boss’s idea who happens to be arrogant not to see the reality of it..?? here we don’t control the flow, the boss does. Alternatively, have you ever tried scarring a child to sleep on time, even if you are not the scarring kind. This is the idea we are discussing.

Now, there is a thin line that divides a harmless alternate with hypocrisy, the moment we do this for gaining self -superiority and the act bearing no positive contribution to the general, then it’s hypocrisy. Beware of getting caught in the draft , seldom do we realize when we cross this line. Go ahead, take a look at the object of realization you have, being a better person will start looking like a better idea. All we need then is a bit more effort to make it happen.

So, overall, when i do look at this sketch of mine, i realize, even though i might be putting on a face when i’m at work in this enterprise called Life, it’s more like a clown face on a birthday party rather than one filled with malice, it kind off makes me happy.   Hope you do the same out there.

The Face within, need not always be a dark one, but one more brighter than what we might show… all we have to do is to understand ourselves and realize how better we can be…

 – Dilnawaz


You are the Traveller, You are the Journey…

“I don’t think i’ll be able to speak if i go up there..”, “Damn..!! its too confusing, I’ll flunk…” , “High schools’s the turning point of life”, “College is the turning point in life”, “If i do this, i might loose my job..!!!”. These are some examples of what i call “Rumors of the Strata” that i can sight of how one truly believes in the rumors at every stage of life, of how one fears more than he initiates, how we live every single day in fear of falling rather than the excitement of climbing up. Its fear of these rumors that slowly molds us into a being of existence who cares more about how things will go wrong rather than how better they can do it, of how they will fail rather than how they can achieve it better. Please do note that i’m not aiming at living life recklessly or without measures of safeguard and care, but what i’m trying to aim at is the fear that we all have lived at some point or the other at every stage of our lives where we simply waver astray from the task at hand just because we are too afraid to loose, in doing so, loose more than half the confidence and enthusiasm towards our goal.

 Thinking about the FEAR of LOSS at the beginning, is the first sign of the end. 

Often as we begin to take a step forward into something new and out of our  comfort zone, the first thought that comes to mind by nature is the safeguard measure as fail safe , but what happens after the thought is in entirety an outcome of how we take it forward. The moment we take this thought further is the moment we loose our edge on the task at hand. Blessed are those who tell their mind to stop wasting focus on what might happen wrong when all they need is the same focus to achieve victory. Fear is imminent being human beings, but harboring the fear for more than that is where we start moving astray.

 On the Path of Evolution, our life.

The human body is an ever evolving mechanism which takes a leap in positive evolution every time we achieve what we aspire to, Every time we win what we want to, we emerge as a victor and as a being of higher energy, higher confidence and a higher perspective of life and every thing around it. Similarly are we diminished with every step we don’t take, every plan we scrap and every thought we discard out of fear.

 Geniuses are not born, they are made, self-made.

At the heart of every successful person, in any profession , sits a being of genius, a genius of a field of work who knows and does best of what he makes life out of. These people, are not geniuses because they were born with it, it was only because they dared and took those steps , the ones we re-track out of fear of loss, We tend to limit ourselves to were we find ourselves most comfortable, and winners make themselves comfortable at where they stand, wherever that might be.

  You are the Traveller, You are the Journey.

Many define life to be many things, what i believe is that it is a simple and obvious outcome of the decisions we make. The journey is nothing but the execution of every decision we took and stuck to in the course of time. A story of success will sight many examples of how tough decisions were taken and how steps were taken which the people first opposed, then ignored and then finally accepted. These experience of a lifetime by the Heros’ of there trade will always sight of how they went against the tide and emerged victors, The biggest tide is the thought of our own minds which dictates us to do otherwise. Its the decision that will make us, its the decision that will break us.

When we look back at what our lives are, we will realize how every good was out of a decision/believe in something good, and how things that went wrong was an outcome otherwise, And the life to come will be an outcome of our thoughts, believes and the decisions we make in the face of fear and have the courage to stick to it. So if we find ourselves at the beginning of such a journey, and if we find ourselves surrounded by negativity of what the possible outcome might be,  do remember… rather always remember, You are the Traveller, You are the Journey…

– Dilnawaz

The Cloud Atlas Perceptions…

“Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.” ― David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

I do think about life, as many others do, and i do think about what is the purpose of life…. a question millions raise in their hearts or on global echoes,  a question we ask ourselves at least once in a lifetime or on many occasions.. People rich and poor, talented and dull, scientists and philosophers, have pondered on it, thought of it, lived and died in search of it.. Makes me wonder, there must be something important in it, otherwise, why the fuss..? As much as i thought about it, it came to me, that if the answer can’t be found, is there another way to look at it..? The answer, Yes, there are many ways one can look at this question.. One such way is what we are going to discuss about here.. I came across a fine book by David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas was not just pure, it was very insightful, (Although the movie really did offer a different view 🙂 ) , i realized what we really should be asking is not “What is the purpose of life?” but rather, “What is OUR our purpose in Life?  ” and not just “in Life” , but more specifically, “Our Lives”. We treat Life as a separate entity when we raise the question as if it has an existence of its own , when we ourselves are a massive part of it. Life is but the result of what we think and act, what we choose to do or don’t, what we decide and what we stick by. Its a direct result of our existence. So what our purpose is, directly reflects to what is the purpose for our lives.

As i read on the Cloud Atlas gave me an amazing outlook to what i thought of my life, We are born out of the grace of almighty, and then we move on to the next world, and by his grace we might come back again, so does everything in nature , as a part of nature’s cycle of existence, beings are born, they live, make a difference and then pass on to merge with nature again, as they merge with nature, the energy they contain merges with the energy of the earth, when they are reborn,  they are born with the amount of energy they passed on with. This can be lesser or greater then the amount of energy we were born with, this energy is light, the part of god we bring to this earth, and the part we take with us. During a lifetime of an individual, we nurture this energy, we choose to do good or bad, This good or bad is not the ones that come as a part of a social vote of being good or bad by a court of law, This good or bad is the state defined by nature herself, the universal good or bad that nature has defined for all. With every act of doing good, the energy we contain in ourselves grow and nurture, and with every deed and thought of bad diminishes this energy within us, in the span of our lives we change for the better or worse according to the energy we contain at the point in time.  So in a way, when we do or think of good, we change for being a better being of existence and when we do bad we change otherwise. That is what i believe is the dynamics of nature, So when we are permitted to be born again, we are either born as a better human being or worse than the last one. There is a reason why despite the environment we grow in, children do have a tendency to start out good or bad when they start, but eventually do end up molding into what the environment turns them into.

Now, we , no matter who we are , doctors, soldiers, engineers, businessmen, lawyers, workers,  craftsmen , artists and a multitude of other things we choose to do in our lives, we choose to do better and better during the span of our lives, we want to get get better at our profession, our homes, our families, we want to be a better son, a better daughter, a better father, a better mother, we want to be better friends, better lovers, we want to get better achievements , better posts , better pay, better lifestyle, better knowledge, better respect, better love, whatever counts for a person in life, we want it to grow as we live on, even a person who says is satisfied with what he has, wants more satisfaction when life throws a growing opportunity at him, point being, we want to get more of what matters in our lives, and what is all of the above if not the energy that fuels us, the energy that runs this world, even when we are bad, we want to get more of the bad we do,  We are born , we acquire or loose the energy we are born with,paving the way for our future existence and then we die,  this is what i believe is our existence at a very basic level. This is what i believe is our purpose at a basic level.

The Cloud Atlas, reinforces this in the character of the protagonist who starts with an existence of sheer evil and by the choices he makes in the many lives he crosses, progressively becomes a being of good and greatness, who starts in a life of misery, ends with a life of satisfaction and family, of happiness.

The law of attraction plays a large role in our lives, also a part of this book, it dictates that at any point of time in our lives we posses an amount of negative or positive energy in our lives, and we attract people of equivalent amount of energy of that nature.  This happens without regards to whether we like it or not, social standards do not play much of a role and wealth is of no value, The amount of good in us attracts good and the amount of bad attracts likewise. this cumulatively turns us more of what we are good or bad, often have our parents told us to hang out with the right kind (or at least who they think are the right kind) , often we have put up with people we absolutely hate, , and we have heard proverbs or good begetting good and bad begetting bad. These things are directly inline with the law of attraction, and this law plays a huge part in the purpose of existence. It helps in both acquiring and loosing the energy we have in us.

“Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present,” and the others are met in life by the law were we will attract people possessing the same kind of energy as we do, and we get inspired, motivated or moved by them, this triggers the further change in us, knowingly or unknowingly, this is why our lives seems not to be of our own.

I don’t know what is the purpose of life, i might find the answer one day, but for now i am looking at the answer to what is my purpose in my life, the purpose for which god created me, to enhance what is around me, and more importantly, to enhance what is within me. As the proverb goes, “What man is a man who doesn’t make his world better…”

– Dilnawaz

If it’s Measurable, If it’s Repeatable, then it’s definitely Predictable…

There are many a things that life teaches one as one progresses through it, it doesn’t matter how you go through this, crawling or flying. I too follow the same pattern of this teachings of life, many of which have been really helpful for stages to come, (Provided i retain them in my head 🙂 ). Let me share one such thing that i have learned in my course till yet.

Since time ancient when man was pulling and pushing stones or even before that, when we dint even know what stones were, till the time we have seen where Man’s Curiosity has reached Mars and time yet to come, i have always seen man looking for a way. A way to quantify, qualify and set a process through, to ease up whatever it is that is to be done at hand. Now i have seen this craving in every aspect of life and society, from a teacher to a scientist and a labor to Banker, be it a sportsman or a hitchhiker, An actor to a mechanic, they all , since time immemorial, have followed the same craving of finding a way to ease up things that come often at hand, be it for their vocation or avocation.

What we are talking about here is the ability or the dedication of man to find a way to somehow relate and ease up tasks at hand. One such rule that we have created over the centuries is :-

” If it’s Measurable, If it’s Repeatable, Then it’s definitely Predictable”

Now, When the Egyptians saw that in a particular year when the Nile was flooded, there was a rich deposit of Silt on all the fields they had which gave them a heavy yield, this happened in the subsequent years, so what did the Smart Egyptian do?, kept an eye out for the water to rise in the Nile and just when it was confirmed that it will flood soon, he would hire cheap labor and fix future deals in terms of crop and grain, because he knew the quantified and qualified outcome of the Flood. He measured, he saw it is repeating , so he predicted and was rich without any blessings from above 🙂 .

The Mayans were a bit more into the stake holding business 🙂 , A wise Mayan once looked up at the sky and saw the stars , the very next day when he did the same, he saw a change, then a group of wise Mayans did the same, and made pillar calendars, and by what they saw, the change in the sky and the relative change in the world, and looking at their stakes, they made a pillar counting down till the year i’m writing this (Although i still don’t know if the world is going to end, if it does, Mayan stakes will be off the charts 🙂 ). They measured the positions of stars, they saw it was repeating and in the end they could predict a lot of the major astronomical occurences that took place, eased up a lot of their lives.

Well now, keeping the fun read aside, man has done this in all time, even today we might see this craving in our daily work,  at our homes. My point is to spread the awareness of this awesome habit that man has developed over the years, it is in us and i think we should exploit it and apply it to as many aspects of our lives as possible, this makes work,office,family fun etc a lot easier, makes life simpler for all of us, so that we can have more time in our lives for other things that awaits us.

Most of all, we should try and apply this to our mind , to our course of life itself. You meet a person who seems nice and caring at first and a little astray like the last person you met , as it progresses, its time you should discuss things with the person to take it forward or put an end to save both of you the bitterness, if we have done something wrong once and faced the consequences, bad consequences, and see ourselves repeating the steps we took, its time we should predict the future to follow and do something about it. If you have hurt someone once and lost the person, and if we see ourselves doing it again, predict where the person will be and act before it materializes. All in all, life is the best place to implement this and emotions are the best table to lay this upon, The beauty of humanity is that all though time is like a river that flows in a single direction, with the ability to predict we can act on it and make sure the one direction in which life flows is the one towards the light not in oblivious lonely darkness. I’m trying to row towards it…. are you.?

– Dilnawaz

Tears in the Rainfall…

Imagine darkness… nothing but a void space of unimaginable size, big or small, not a ray in sight, nothing but feeling of looking out into a finite space but not in form.. This darkness is life itself..  a vast unpredictable but felt to be finite span of a journey where anything is possible.. You might imagine anything in this void darkness, same as you can be or do anything in your life. Just like life itself cannot be defined by any equation or formula, similar is the case for defining darkness. Both misunderstood, Both calm and patient, Both rely on us to mould by imagination/effort into anything possible form.

Now imagine rainfall in this darkness.. A sound of thunder, a flash of light, a dull flash of light.. Drops of water different size, falling down, some soft and assuring while others harsh and strong..  The lightning in this storm doesn’t show you what lies in the darkness, but shines for a moment brief enough for you to grasp confidence about the surrounding emptiness. This storm is Guidance that one might receive in life, the advice of well being , some soft and loving while others harsh and strong, but they all mean the same thing, your well being.

Now imagine a face, up close, face tilted upwards to face the storm, eyes shut, lips together, the expression of calmness and serenity, the face only slightly lit up in shades of platinum, light focussed in the center fading away as it reaches the edge, The eyes lined with a thick border of dark eyelashes, darkened even more by soot. Raindrops falling on this dimly lit face up close to you, all you can do is to see and wonder, this face looking up in this vast expanse of darkness, this frail luminescence onto it, and drops of face hitting this face, and trickling down from all sides. This face, is an experience in life, any experience you can think of, an experience surrounded by thoughts and advice, an experience surrounded by all the choices you have made, as a result of direct or indirect guidance that you might have received. This face in this storm , up close in this darkness.

A question that i will put forward now to all out there, in this “LIFE” that i showed you above, do you see tears of this face? A drop of tear, trickling down the face in the midst of all the rain falling on the face itself ?

Well, the obvious answer will be, “How could I”, how can one find a tear in the midst of this apparition of a void darkness , a dim lit face with eyes shut looking up to a storm that sends down thunder lightning and horrendous rain.  How would we know which is water and which is tear. The answer is to understand what this tear is.

This tear is an emotion, an emotion that we have in life, that we harbour in life, we might think we know the tear by looking at this face of experience, but it might just be a drop of water, or an emotion that we think is there, a judgement error involving a misplaced sense of a particular emotion. But on occasions, one might rightly identity the tear amongst water, blessed is the person who does so, as knowing the emotion at the time of the experience is a gift not many receive. On occasions some might even believe that they have the right one, even if deep down inside, they know it might not be.. For such occasions, we have mistaken a part of life, and it will reflect back in a way where we will be clueless as to what happened.. To avoid such an experience or to revert such a belief, one needs to touch the core of one’s own belief, which lies deep within, and it is from within  can we rectify the act. This will not bring back the moment lost, but will set up the moments to come to be beautiful.

In this large void of life, using the soft/hard guidance of many, and at the time of looking onto the face of experience , try… just try to identify the right emotion we bear , good comes from it if you can, otherwise what else is there in this void to see, and thus do we figure out our lives, the emotions and experiences, but if we can’t, then life is just a sight of something you like, something you live, but something that you never figured through.

Know these Tears in the Rainfall…

– Dilnawaz

Sins of a Man are Deeds for another…

We all see the world in a aspect unique from each other, some even share their views of this world. Some are at war 24X7, while others find peace in nature’s lullaby. Some are on the run for fame,ambition to come, while others rather slug around having whatever they have. Some believe this will never change, some live daily for this change, Some believe the earth will end, while others plan for decisions a quarter century  hence. There are major and minor categories we can divide the world into, but never has history since time immemorial witnessed, the greatest division etched out by Man…  Faith.

What most of us fail to realize is that Faith and Tending to be faithful are two widely different concepts, specially if the Tending has a pretext of  “Pre” in it.

What one might do right, will be seen as wrong with the other, and some accepted acts of chaos might be well accepted by the other. The key is to know that all our belief , no matter what the origin, no matter what the goal, never presides to preside over the other. Sure things can be different when seen through a context, just because it’s called a  Hamburger, doesn’t necessarily mean it has ham in it, and know that inflammable and flammable means the same thing 🙂 thus is the fate of the world, lost in contexts and interprated by few, right or wrong, none of us can judge.

Mind you dear readers, this is not about religion, but about faith, in people, in an object , in a goal, in good or bad, even in the omnipresent. I am aiming only at the lives of one who has faith in something v/s those who don’t posses it at all.

Although they both might seem to genuine from the holistic view, there is a different we might see.  Imagine a Car driven on fuel at 1 km/hr,  simultaneously beside it is a car being pushed at the same speed. From standing in front of it, they both look the same.  To actually find out which is running on fuel/faith and which is the other, we need to have a look from the side, in other words, alter the way we look at things, we were born in today’s world having believes which pre-dates any living person we know, just like the viewers of our “Race race” standing in the front line not knowing how the set up looks like from the side.

Faith is magnificent, like fuel, can be bent , stored, flown through any possible dimension, and just like the fluid, it can reach our inner most person , like it’s channelled into the core of the engine, and from within, from the core this fuel is burnt which drives us right through with the minimal efforts, the comforts that a car driver gets when he is sitting in one. While on the other hand, pretending to be faithful does get you through the race, for only people who do not posses an alternate view, BUT, it’s tiring, hectic, hurts you at every step, wounds only you can realise understand and bear , nothing but a moving empty shell.

At the end of this race, the faithful either wins or looses to the car that was pushed through, but he saves himself the hectic trudge, the tiring efforts and the cranky mind set over the one who actually goes through all of this to win a race which has no prize.

The whole point of faith is not proving yours is better, but it is for one to see to it that one’s life goes smooth and effortless. In the end, its for you to decide, push it through or drive all the way… 🙂

– Dilnawaz

We make the choices… Or is it the other way around…

A poor boy from Kentucky, most likely to follow the chains of labour and poverty, decided to study law and ran for president in which he succeeded only after loosing several times, he did become one of the greatest presidents of the United States of America… We know him as Abraham Lincoln… A Lady  lost on the streets of England, no jobs and a dependent child, decided to write and inked down her imaginations… J.K Rowling is now one of the most celebrated authors in the world. A boy born to a steel worker and a part time cleaner, even though he harboured a disease which hampered is health, played what he loved and wrote his destiny on a napkin, Is now a champion of champions on the field of football.. Lionel Messi has made his parents proud and made worth of every word of the contract they wrote on a napkin that day…

Great personalities and even greater were there deeds, some of them mentioned above, there life mentioned in a nutshell, and in this nutshell will we find the secret that made them who they are. All one has to do is to look closer into there lives and you will find the words , “ decided to study law and ran for president”, ” decided to write and inked down her imaginations”, “ played what he loved and wrote his destiny on a napkin”.  These people changed the world, and changed the way we look at the world, and all they had to do was to decide what they wanted, and did it. They had roadblocks like we do, they followed there dreams, ran after them, stumbled, fell down but they got back right up and continued like nothing ever happened. The only thing you should learn from here on is why you fell and how you got back up, the rest is a baggage you should leave behind.

I know we try to get things done in this world, but somehow we do hit road blocks, we do hit dead ends. If i recall, in an entire lifetime spent, i have faced many roadblocks, some which i have overcome and a good amount i ran from, a lot of dead ends met. But now that i wonder, now that i think about each of them, i know it was me who chose to run away, rather than face it head on. Well, now i know there is only one roadblock in this life and there is only one dead end in this world, the dead end to hope, the dead end to our spirit. Today if you firmly believe that you can’t walk , then you might never walk again, alternatively , if you firmly believe that you can touch the moon, you might as well prep for the best space school on the planet. In the end, its just you who makes the choice of what you can or can’t do.

“Remember, until your dreams are a part of the world, you can achieve them, and if they are not, then it is your belief that will bring it to this world. The rest is for you to chase. I know I’m chasing mine.”

– Dilnawaz